Dear Guides,

I went to this party over the weekend, and I got drunk at it. It was Halloween, and I met this guy at it. All my friends got dressed up and I was a cat. I love Halloween, it's so much fun.

At this party, it was so dark and there was a lot of loud music, and I didn't know any of the guys. I felt like the guys had an energy that came off of them that were unapproachable and I was unapproachable except to people I knew. I was psychicly reading them.

I don't typically approach guys because I don't want to appear "needy" or that I'm easy, but I'm also somewhat unfriendly until I let someone in. I feel like I do it as a protection mechanism, but I dont really know how to change it.

I felt kind of lonely at the party, and all my friends had such a good time and I had fun dancing, and my friends boyfriend Franco approached me quite a bit because he's kind to me. I can't quite figure it out with him, there's something about him that resonantes with me, but it's probably because Lindsay speaks highly of me to him.

The rest of these guys at this party felt such a lower vibration and I usually listen to a person's heart, and if they have love for me or not. Those people were very unfriendly, and so I empathized with it, and reacted to it and got quiet.

I felt like my future self was with me all through the party, guiding me on how to have a good time and who not to approach, which is fine because not everyone in Dana Point is trustworthy, and there's this sense that I get that some people do bad things. I feel like I've been protected a lot through High School from people and their energies, and that my spirituality protected me from some pretty bad situations I could have easily got into with these people.

I could just sense it in them, I could sense their light and if they were dark, so I didnt talk to them if they felt weird and have an edge to them.

This is why I became a nerd, the people who are smart are so much better to be friends with and a more trustworthy than the guys who were really popular and a part of their own social crew, as well as, people with a heart which all my friends have plenty of that.

To be honest, some of the people kind of scared me. It was what was inside them and I'm a little flighty and bail when the energy feels weird.

I get the sense they think they are better than me, but the only thing they have is social "accumen" and history of relationships with people, that I did not have, and I have confidence in other things like sports and school. Plus, the adderal suppressed a lot of my social abilities and doesnt make me easily exited like how I get when I don't take it.

I feel like I was absorbing some of the people's emotions and feelings too, which makes me withdrawal a little.

I get the sense people knew who I was, but I just didn't talk or reach out to create connection because of a social lack of confidence maybe, or the fact that I'm not always social in the beginning when I meet people.

I saw my future self and angels working with my to change the memory of the experience of Halloween and that party, and made it very light and bright. I get flashbacks and it think it's a little strange.

"we're weak" -Psychicly reading one of the guys thoughts from the party

Dear One,

this is Arimia. We are here to speak to you about your self talk. We can work with you to build yourself up and get in the right frame of thinking and help you discern who you could talk to and who not to. We understand your intuitive and sensitive to people, but we don't want to let it inhibit you from not talking to people. We understand that some people at the party are under the influence and a part of their own circles, and that you were outcasted except amongst your closest girlfriends.

We want to talk about Matt Trabon, he loves you deeply and seen you in many lights.

Your friends will come around in soon to come when you let your heart shine and allow yourself to be more open with yourself, and confident with who you are. Own your ground in social situations and amongst your peers, it will be a good skill to master in the future. Don't be afraid of guys, use discernment and justice will be met with what you feel about some of them. Trust us, they have already served in certain ways so your intuitions are right.

Have compassion for Amanda's path with you. We will let that be with you now.

Trust us, you are right.

If you hadnt met us on the astral plain, we wouldn't have known the truth of you and what you'd gone through.

Look for wisdom in this. Family

Let us bring light to your halloween party, and send light to the experience for you and other people making it a miracle healing of it. We will bring light to the fact, many of them were on drugs, which would explain many things and how you felt.

Just be aware next time, it's not you, its us. -Psychic reading someone from the party

You get uncomfortable around people under the influence.