The cold wind whistles through the park as I think about the humiliation I was put through today. With every step I hear the crackly crunch under my furry boot covered feet. The tears in my eyes feel as if they are freezing to my face from the cold, frozen there forever. A gust of wind makes me wrap my puffy winter coat around me tighter. I fight through the cold to Chrystal Lake, my favorite spot to just sit and think about things. A place where no one in my family knows im at. No one except for my boyfriend, Zach. I sit down on the cold damp rock that peeks up from out of the water 3 feet out. I just sit there watching the tiny waves lap at the side of the rock occasionally spraying mist onto my jeans. I watch the pumpkin colored sun creep across the sky over to the highest mountain as if hiding from the world. I sit there watching... not looking for anything just watching. In the middle of all the silence my phone gets jealous and decides to interrupt with a text from Zach.
Bri you can’t just throw your life away. You’re too important to me. Please don’t do it! -Zach
Im not that important. I think to myself as memories of today slowly creep their way back into my mind. Why does Hanna always have to target me? I never did anything to her.
Zach, you can’t change my mind. At least Hanna will be happy and I won’t get bullied anymore. –Bri
Bri seriously? You’re willing to give Hanna what she wants? Make her put up a fight. She wants to get to you. Where are you? You can talk to me. That will make you feel better. –Zach
Tears stream down my face and it hurts to texts because the mist from the lake numbs my fingers when the cool fall wind blows. I look up from my phone into the dark woods as the wind blows my tangled black hair out of my ocean blue eyes.
Im nowhere –Bri
As soon as I text back my phone vibrates.
Did you like my little speech today at lunch Bri? Don’t you wish your mom didn’t leave you? Don’t you wish she would come back so you can talk to her about your problems like I can to mine? Must suck to be you. :D –Hanna
This time tears don’t flood my cheeks. I have my mind set and I hope Hanna will like it. I take the pills out of my coat pocket and look at the label. Im ready. I take the picture of me and my parents out of my pocket and lay it on the cold damp rock beside my phone.
Lindsay I know you’re at Chrystal Lake. Just wait im coming. –Zach
Don’t try. It will be too late. –Bri
I take a handful of the pills and swallow them. I immediately start crying as I realize what im doing. I take my warm blue jacket off and throw it off the rock onto the rocky shore. I take a deep breath and jump into the icy blue water. All my muscles tense up as the water shocks my skin. I swim back over to the rock, hoist myself onto the side with my legs still dangling in the cold water, and grab my phone.
Zach, just know I love you and I will always love you. –Bri
I throw myself into the water again with a splash. I am starting to feel dizzy. I can’t feel my feet and my vision is getting blurry. It’s happening. I think to myself. My stomach is in excruciating pain and it is getting hard to breathe. I throw up in the water next to me but it only makes the pain sharper. I feel myself sinking little by little. Water is seeping into my lungs giving me more of a burning feeling. I look over to the shore to see a black mustang screech to a stop and Zach runs towards the water but at that moment all the pain goes away and everything goes black.
“No Bri, stop!” He screams splashing through the tiny rippling waves as tears run down his perfect face. But he is too late. Bri is gone. In the middle of the water his phone goes off.
Zach, just know I love you and I will always love you. -Lindsay