October 31st of 2012,
Today I was in a great mood. I had my 9 hours of sleep, woke up, and took a hot, steaming shower. I was so happy that I thought to myself that today is going to be a great day and nothing is going to ruin it for me, but little did I know I spoke to soon.
As I was getting ready to go to school I lost track of time so I missed my buss, but I didn’t let it get to me because I was in such a great mood. As I wait for the transit, these guys were looking at me weird like there was a stain on my face, so I started to stare back.
The transit finally got here, so I went to go find a spot to sit down. I was just thinking why they were staring at me like that, because I didn’t like it. I wondered if something was going to happen to me when I get off the transit station. Somehow I forgot about it and thought about what I am going to do later because it was Halloween.
When I got off the transit at the transit station, the guys who were staring at me came up to me and asked me if I wanted to throw down. I told them no, but they insisted that I fight them. I stop talking and started to walk inside the transit 225, they grabbed my backpack and pulled it back. I turned around, I pushed the guy down and I told him that I didn’t want to fight him. I could easily break his face if I wanted to. I was furious, he looked scared and I looked up and waited for one of his “homies” to do something, but they didn’t. I got inside the transit and went to school. I was getting moodier by the minute.
I got to school and I got a tardy ticket and realized that I have to go to ISS (In School Suspension) later. I go to class and my girlfriend is also mad but I don’t know why. She loves to keep things to herself no matter how big or small it is, it stays with her. So she was getting mad at me for no reason. I was mad and she was mad, everyone might as well have been mad.
Get threw my 1st and 2nd hour classes and go to my 3rd, that’s where I felt like I was about to explode on the teacher! It was almost time for me to leave and it was my last class of the day. I pulled out my phone to see what time it was, because I couldn’t see the clock and she took it away making it my 2nd offense. Meaning my parent has to come and pick it up. I already hate this class because of how the teacher does things, also because she gives attitude about everything, making everyone feel stupid who questions her.
I stayed after class asking her if I could have my phone back and why I pulled it out, I tried to reason with her. Nope, she had to give attitude and try to make me feel stupid about why I shouldn’t have the phone out in the first place. Oh my God! I couldn’t believe her. I was about to explode in her face and tell her off! I was going to say something that made her feel like crap. I was going to say, “Now listen here you old fart, no one in this class likes you! We are all here because this is a required class, but if it wasn’t we would be switching out of class in an instant. To be honest I personally think that your too old for this job, you date back to where they first invented fire! Do yourself a favor and just retire already!”
But I didn’t. No matter how much I wanted to say that I didn’t. I stood there, turned around and left mad. I eventually spent A lunch blowing of steam in the cardio room. I finished, and then took B lunch to eat with my girlfriend. But I forgot she doesn’t know I’m here, so she sat with her friends. I was ok with it, I would walk her to her 5th hour class and go home, so I did. B lunch finished and I let her know I was going to walk her to class. I took her and I was getting happier because we were both laughing and I totally forgot about the crappy day I was having.
Just before we got to the C wing hall where her class was at, we stood there with another friend of ours named Amairani. She was telling us of how she was freaking out, and when she said that, I turned around to look who was behind my girlfriend. I see arms go around her neck, the guy’s face close to hers telling her hi. I saw it and I got mad. I was waiting for Amairani to say do something but she didn’t.
Amairani just look at me and says, “Dude that’s so awkward.” My face went down immediately and he left. She had a big smile in her face and I walked her to class. The time it took me to take her to class I was waiting for an answer, but nothing. I stood there dumbfounded of what is happening.
She looked at me and said, “Don’t be mad ok?” She kissed me good bye, but I didn’t put effort on it. She notice and went inside. In my mind I repeated what she said don’t be mad ok, don’t be mad ok, don’t be mad ok. It was running in my mind over and over again. I thought to myself, telling myself that don’t be mad ok! What should I be doing, clapping instead huh? because it was a great performance huh? Just speaking to myself like a mad man on rage. I was so mad of how the day went from good to bad in just a few hours.
I left the hall, went outside to take the transit home. The ride was so long that I actually fell asleep. I woke up in time to get off and go home. Once I did, I went to my backyard and grabbed an axe to go cut and chip away this big tree trunk we have in my backyard. I grabbed my iPod, put on some music and took out my anger on this tree trunk. I made a mess but didn’t bother cleaning it up because I was tired. I took a shower and went to bed early and didn’t wake up till later around 11 p.m. I didn’t even bother going out on Halloween. I will never forget that day.
People said that I’ve changed after that, but I didn’t change, I grew up. I can’t always be happy. I accepted reality.