There is a continuous thudding in my head. Thud thud thud. Like a drum. Thud thud thud. I get suddenly dizzy and sway slightly. But no I don’t fall like I want to. I quickly regain myself and smile. Smiley smiley, bouncy bouncy. I am happy not sad I am confident not confused. Yes that is me the girl like Miranda Hart never sad always happy, a lot to live up to I am in love with a boy who will never notice me. I have a family that think I am lazy. Lots of words buzzing around inside me that have no way out. Maybe I am not so abominable just a small tired upset girl. But I pretend to be happy, smiley smiley, bouncy bouncy.