As i sit here looking at your picture with tears falling from my eyes i look up to the sky and ask why why did you have to take him god why did you have to take him to the sky. You dont know how much that hurt us you dont know how much we suffer every night. People tell me just get over it and move on im like really move on how can i move on when my brother is six feet under the ground how can i move on when i cant run to my brother and tell him everything thats going wrong. Im dying every second that you're im trying to stay strong but man i still cant face the fact that you're gone.

I guess its just one of those thing i really dont want to face cuz i still faith that one day you'll be standing in front of my face. Im hopeing that this is all just a dream and that i'll wake up soon and we'll be looking at the moon but i guess its not a dream after all i can see that grave that says you're name and i know what my dad told me at your wake that if i screamed your name loud enough you'll come home it didnt work cuz no matter how manytimes i tried and no matter how loud i screamed you were still there lying in peace.

Man David how i wish you were still alive. I wish i could be talking to you face to face instead of writting all this down i dont know how long i can keep this fake my smile on my face knowing you were miss placed i know alot of people were on your case but forget about them they dont matter its all about you and how you're never forgotten you're always on our mind at all times even when our mind is tied up in all some other stuff.

To this day it hurts that you're gone im not the only one who feels this way the family whole misses you. I wish i could turn back the hands of time and start everything over again. Then mami will have you in her arms then you could part of all these life changing memories. I cant explain how much i really miss you David. I know its messed up how things had to end. One day we'll be standing in front of each other face to face and only then i'll be happy and only then i'll let everything go but until then im stuck hug this shirt that has your face on it. Man David look what we been through but the only thing that kept us with our heads up was you knowing we didnt want to disapoint you. Now we shed these tears knowing you can no longer live this life with us.

People say things happen for a reason but what was the reason god took you with him. Was it a good enough reason to leave a mother without a son,a brother and sisters with out a brother or nieces and nephews without an uncle. Whats the reason he had to put all of us through this pain