Wayne lived in Atlanta, Georgia.  He worked at a grocery store and rented a small apartment which was on the top floor of his complex.  He was approaching his 56th birthday.  He could be described as despondent, depressed, and simply unhappy.  This very well could have been because all of his life he has been alone and unsuccessful.  His loneliness and lack of success can be traced back to when Wayne was just a kid.
Wayne was born in Detroit, Michigan.  His father left him before he was born so his mother was left alone to raise him.  Wayne was an only child and his mother was overly strict with him.  Even before he was in high school, Wayne was left self conscious and fundamentally afraid.  Afraid of everything.  He was afraid of life.  He was afraid of being accepted by the rest of the world.  He was afraid that he was not good enough to be successful in life. 
Contrary to his own thoughts, Wayne was smart, attractive, and had many other great characteristics.  Wayne had not seen any of this because his fear had blinded him.  He held back on everything in life because he feared that if he were to try anything bold, he would be hurt. 
As Wayne moved onto High School, he was reluctant to make new friends or make a social exclamation point at all.  Wayne thought so lowly of himself, that he feared that if more people knew who he was, he would risk being bullied by others.  Also, his grades suffered for that Wayne had placed himself in a world outside of reality.  He was encompassed by his dismay and anxious doubt.  He simply was too precautionary of unimportant effects, which ironically led him down a path of sorrow and pain.
Wayne graduated high school.  He chose not to go to college because he feared that college would be too hard; he would not fit in; college was too expensive; he examined the fact that no one in his family had ever attended college.  At this point in Wayne's life, actions of passion, excitement, and acceptance of self were nearly no existence.
As adulthood began, Wayne accepted a job as a cashier at a local fast food chain.  He liked this because he recognized the quality of work as security.  Many times up to this point and in the future as well had Wayne had opportunities to seek a relationship with a woman.  The problem was that Wayne was too scared at the mere thought of rejection that he decided to hold back.  Somehow he had convinced himself this was a good life.  He thought that because he was safe, he was doing great.
Fast forward just about 29 years and you will find present Wayne talking to his dying mother about his fulfillment of life. 
”What do you think about your life?”, quietly asked Wayne’s mother.
“I think that I’ve done well mom.  What do you think ma’?”, delicately asked Wayne.
  “You can do better son.  I see you pull back from life.  I think you are afraid.” said Wayne mom.
“What do you mean mom?” Quietly asked Wayne.
“I think you live a sad, quiet life because you are afraid of what will happen if you reach out to see what life has to offer.”  answered Wayne's mom.
Confused, Wayne soon went back to his apartment to think about what his mother had told him.  He recognized that his mom saw him as a failure.  Just a few hours after his last visit, Wayne received a call that informed him that his mother had died.  Absolutely devastated, Wayne sat on his balcony crying for hours on end.  Eventually, Wayne seemed to had lost all hope for life and only saw a 12 story leap to safety from more pain.  He had no respect for himself.  Throughout the night into the early hours of the morning, Wayne drank himself to the edge of his balcony.  Then, he jumped.
Wayne’s fear of pain and acceptance ironically forced him down a life path in which he would be unsuccessful and alone. 
There is no denying that Wayne did not grown up in the best of circumstances to thrive in life.  As he grew up, he always avoided his fears rather than face them.  This tremendously affected his success and happiness.  He settled for little because he did not truly believe that he deserved better.  Along with all of this he simply had no ambition to pursue his own happiness. 
It would be a lie to say Wayne was completely unaware of all of this.  He knew basically all of his faults and mistakes but he ignored them and convinced himself it was all great.  He had this mentality throughout his entire life.  Wayne’s final conversation with his mom pushed him over the edge.  One that he knew he could never come back from.  He was forced to confront all of his past and present for what it really was.  He knew that he would be forced to change his life.  The conclusion he came to was to end his own life.

“There are two basic motivating forces: fear and love. When we are afraid, we pull back from life. When we are in love, we open to all that life has to offer with passion, excitement, and acceptance. We need to learn to love ourselves first, in all our glory and our imperfections. If we cannot love ourselves, we cannot fully open to our ability to love others or our potential to create. Evolution and all hopes for a better world rest in the fearlessness and open-hearted vision of people who embrace life.” - John Lennon