Yesterday I sat in that cold black office chair nearly worrying myself to death. We waited anxiously for trinity(my younger sister)to walk out,but now thinking back I wonder if maybe she should have stayed in the depressed room.

  She had been diagnosed. Not with anything curable but with cancer,a disease that has killed hundreds of thousands of people. There was no way for me to describe the pain and anger I felt inside. If only we'd found out sooner if only we could I could switch places with her. I could not bear the thought of losing her I'd seen several people fight this terrible disease I couldn't see her not her not anyone.

Earlier this month Trinity started chemotherapy.I can tell she's hurting inside but she puts on smile any way. Seeing her go through this is definitely one of the hardest things I've ever had to deal with. I don't know if she's going to make it ,I want more than anything to end this suffering if there's anything I can do anything at all I will. No matter the consequences.

Today we met with the doctors and discussed trinitys health. They said she has a chance. I can save her,I can end her suffering.

Earlier this week I signed some papers.With my signature printed in ink they could could take my kidney to save Trinity. I'd do anything for her,even if it kills me.

We were in the car going to get some fro-yo all was well,until an 18-wheeler crashed into us.Everything was a blur there was ambulances and police,firefighters? I'm not all that sure but the last thing I do remember is me going into surgery for my brain I believe,but I'm about 99.99% sure I'm brain dead and this is just my spirit talking.Whether that's a good or bad thing I don't know I mean it's very unfortunate for me but now they can take my kidney and save Trinity. Maybe I sound crazy like really dude you want to die a vegetable ,but I'm not, I love my sister and I go I want to go knowing I saved her life knowing I left this world on a good note.

So the craziest thing happened a couple hours,minutes or days ago, I'm really not all that sure when this happened but it's happening. I think I died,and the only reason I think this is because I'm staring right at my body. I'm in the morgue and I have stitches over where my kidney is or once was? I don't know what's going on but I haven't been able to move,that's also probably because I haven't tried to. I'm sitting here in awe of my dead body,I've gotten awfully skinny ,my skin is yellow,that may be because I'm ,well,dead I guess.I've been reminiscing the past and all the lovely moments spent with my family. I decided to try and move I wanted to get a closer look at my dead body. I inched closer and closer there was  a cloth over nearly all of my body except for where my kidney was/or still is?I picked it up and couldn't believe my eyes. The body wasn't mine it was,Trinitys.

I was so confused is she deceased am I or are we both? I heard a voice”TROY,TROY!!!” Screeched a cold voice. I blacked out then awoke to Trinity.

“What in gods name happened” I said in complete and utter confusion. “Well,we got into the wreck and you knocked out I tried to wake you up but you wouldn't. Ambulances and Firefighters came to help we were rushed straight to the hospital.They did brain surgery your frontal lobe you had a huge bleed and a shard of glass that pierced straight through you skull.You flatlined 9 times before they finally brought you back with a steady hear beat..After that you started hemridging and then..you went ,brain dead.Mom and dad couldn't bear to see you,I mean you were practically a potato,but that's beside the point.After that they said since you had signed away your kidneys they were coming out of you and into me.So we said our goodbyes to you then I went into surgery. I had this weird out of body experience it was crazy but basically I observed my entire surgery everything went good,until my heart totally flipped out on me and they couldn't do anything about it so I flatlined and they couldn't bring me back.” ,”So were both dead?” “Yes Troy we are dead,and I guess that's ok because we lived great lives.” ,”We sure did,well before all the cancer.” “Yup”.