Twenty days.
I don't know why...
I keep holding on to twenty days
With no reply.

"Hello."
"Hey."
"It's me again."
"I miss you."
"The grass looks gray today."
"It's so cold today...where are your arms?"
"Did I tell you that I miss you?"
"I love you, still."
"I see hearts everywhere."
"I hear your name."
"Why can't I see your face?"
"There's snow on the ground."
"Did you hear me?"
"Snow in October."
"Why do you hate me?"
"I feel so chilled in my sweater."
"What's going on with you...how's your life?"
"I'm not doing so well, though no one could ever tell behind my smiling mask."
"Façade...what a pretty word."
"Do you know what language it is? I think it's French..."
"But I like Spanish."
"I prefer Spanish."
"I prefer you."
"Do you realize what goes through my mind when I see you?"
"I've memorized your face."
"Every feature, so exquisite."
"Green-blue-gray, like the ocean."
"But they're more beautiful than the ocean..."
"More like a lake."
"Yes, your eyes are the color of a lake on a cool day with the green trees reflecting off the surface."
"And your smile..."
"Ah, your smile."
"Your eyes crinkle up at the corners and you keep your mouth slightly open."
"Every smile of yours just kills me."
"Why can't I have a smile just as perfect?"
"Why can't I have you?"
"All I ever do is look at you, watch you as long as I can."
"Longing for you to notice me..."
"To want me again..."
"To love me."
"When you're not around, I think."
"Think of you."
"You make my head spin."
"My heart race."
"My world...stop."
"YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND!"
"I...LOVE you."
"At least, eighth grade love."
"No."
"We promised each other we would get married."
"That we wouldn't screw it up."
"Don't you remember?"
"I'm sorry that I'm a flirt."
"A huge one, at that...I know."
"But...that doesn't change how much I love you."
"Am I wasting your time?"
"Am I wasting...mine?"
"No. Never."
"You are worth waiting for."
"I will wait for you."
"I promise."
"A promise is a promise."
"Do you remember that?"
"It's November now."
"It is so dark out."
"I wish I could stare into your eyes."
"And fall asleep in your arms."
"I just have one question..."
"What do you want me to do?"
"Ignore you?"
"Avoid you in school?"
"Move on?"
"Or should I look and act depressed?"
"Cling onto you...and never let go."
"I'm obsessing over this, I know."
"Friends tell me to STOP."
"MOVE ON."
"HE ISN'T WORTH IT!"
But Adrian, my love.
You are worth every second of my time spent thinking about you.
You are worth every glance, even if it is not met.
You are worth every sigh, every breath of longing.
Every song I sing.
Every heart I draw.
Every word I write.
Every text sent.
I don't take back any "I love you".
Because, my darling, you are worth twenty days and counting.
You are worth it all.