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Too Much To Ask For

October 17, 2015
By Alicia-Pallavi BRONZE, Houston, Texas
Alicia-Pallavi BRONZE, Houston, Texas
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I’m so sick and tired of it all. I just want it to stop. I want people to stop observing the blotchy red mountains etched upon my face. I want to stop pointing out my flaws when looking at a mirror. I want to stop brushing my teeth and hair in the dark all because I can’t bear to see my pained expressions. I want to stop feeling ashamed of my physical appearance. I want to stop forcing myself to hide behind foundation and powder, and I want my mother and sister to stop demanding me to apply makeup. I want to stop envy and fury from taking over me. I want to stop feeling insecure when talking to my flawless friends and family. I want to stop fantasizing over an imaginary prince charming who’d compliment me and see past the impurities on my forehead, nose, and under my eyes. I want to stop crying over a dream left unfulfilled. I want to stop plastering a faux smile expressing artificial happiness. I want to stop turning the corner when a handsome boy passes by. I want to stop pulling over my hoodie when a group of teen models strut past me. I want to stop trying to avoid the cautious glances, wary stares, and the guarded eyes. I want to stop living in a world where beauty is a blessing for those bestowed with it, and an intolerable curse to those who lack it.

 

I just want to wake up feeling beautiful and free of any concerns. I want to feel confident enough to stand at the front of the class and to be introduced to new people. I want to be able to let go of my insecurities. I want to relish the youthful attention of awe and admiration rather than pity and disgust. I want to retire to bed without the burden of another day filled with unease. I want to enjoy looking at myself, noticing how my smile is my best feature. I want to finally believe in the flattery compliments I get rather than simply brushing them aside. I want to walk out the door with my head held high and my chin up. I want to be able to brush my hair with the lights on. I want to throw away all forms of makeup and simply feel content with smooth flawless skin. I just want to live my life in pure gorgeous bliss.

 

Is that just too much to ask for?


The author's comments:

Your teenage years are more than just rebellious attitudes and experimentation with clothing and friends. They bring you the most harmful and teriffying times that you will ever experience.


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on Oct. 29 2015 at 7:14 am
LittleRedDeliriousPrince SILVER, Parma Heights, Ohio
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This is a wonderful article, and I agree with you. Our society's idea of beauty is corrupted. I think that we should all, "beautiful" or "cursed," wake up in the morning feel happy and blissful and confident about ourselves. It's not too much to ask for. But for some of us, it's too much to believe in.