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Dreams and Somedays

July 28, 2021
By SparrowSun ELITE, X, Vermont
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Favorite Quote:
"It Will Be Good." (complicated semi-spiritual emotional story.)<br /> <br /> "Upon his bench the pieces lay<br /> As if an artwork on display<br /> Of gears and hands<br /> And wire-thin bands<br /> That glisten in dim candle play." -Janice T., Clockwork[love that poem, dont know why, im not steampunk]

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Dreams are what make us who we are. But mine is a curse. My dream lies in my affliction, in the someday. The someday that consumes me when I am at my lowest, saddest. The someday that lies to me and poisons my thought and pushes me for nothing when I have nothing left.

The someday is what I cling to. It destroys me. I hate it, I love it, I fear it. But ultimately, there's nothing I can do. I can't rid myself of it. I can't accept it. Maybe if I were to be free of it, I would fade away into nothingness. It's become my identity. 

If my dreams are in someday, I hate them. If dreams make us who we are, then I am nothing. I’m a shell. Worst, I guess I've accepted that. I don't believe in the dreams, or hope, or someday. All I can believe is never. But maybe someday...

© Rajacenna v., Vlaardingen, Netherlands

The author's comments:

Of course I believe in God. this is speaking in relativity.

I'm sorry to say this is true. and about me. sorta like 'the dance' if it were real. 

maybe someday this wont be true...

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SparrowSun ELITE said...
on Aug. 13 2021 at 8:20 pm
SparrowSun ELITE, X, Vermont
200 articles 23 photos 1053 comments

Favorite Quote:
"It Will Be Good." (complicated semi-spiritual emotional story.)<br /> <br /> "Upon his bench the pieces lay<br /> As if an artwork on display<br /> Of gears and hands<br /> And wire-thin bands<br /> That glisten in dim candle play." -Janice T., Clockwork[love that poem, dont know why, im not steampunk]

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yeah, i just have so many plans and dreams and stuff and i feel stuck. im so sad and lonly where i am, and i keep promising myself. someday ill be happy,m someday iplll have friends(irl), someday someday someday. it feels like a lie now. s0o broken. i hate it, but i cant escape it. its my promise, my addiction, my enemy, my love. litrally everything in m poem called addiction.
Lydiaq ELITE said...
on Aug. 6 2021 at 2:37 pm
Lydiaq ELITE, Somonauk, Illinois
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The universe must be a teenage girl. So much darkness, so many stars.<br /> --me

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Even the best of us feel this way. And when we are morbidly introspective on dark nights alone in bed, yes, it does seem kinda true.
LKQgirl GOLD said...
on Aug. 6 2021 at 2:30 pm
LKQgirl GOLD, Somonauk, Illinois
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MUH HAH HAH HAH!

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(whatever it is, you can tell about it and I can try to help if that's ok with you.)
LKQgirl GOLD said...
on Aug. 6 2021 at 2:24 pm
LKQgirl GOLD, Somonauk, Illinois
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Favorite Quote:
MUH HAH HAH HAH!

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I saw you posted this exact same piece in a comment once. We are all concerned about you dwelling in this darkness of thoughts, and we aren't exactly sure what you mean.