Normally when you hear school’s closing, most people would be happy. I know I was, at least I was until things changed. March 17 – April 27, 2020, that was how long we were supposed to stay home from school due to Covid. Until it wasn’t. Until things changed.

At first I was happy, I mean, what kid wouldn’t be? No school for basically a month?! Sign me up! Some of my friends were worried because they thought  most days would add on to summer, but I was too excited to pay attention to it. So flash-forward to about 5 weeks later, April 21, 2020,  school was closed for the rest of the year. About 2 weeks later, it was announced that school would be continued online on Zoom for the rest of the year. But it was 5 weeks later for me since I didn't check my emails. 

So I wasn’t on Zoom for a while until my friend texted me, letting me know we still have class.  School on Zoom went by in the blink of an eye. It was surprising for me  since I hated it.  No one really talked to me, and I didn’t talk to them. Times were hard for everyone, and I didn't want to be inconsiderate. But when I actually thought about it, it really sucked I was finally starting to like school, made actual good friends, and I even liked my teachers surprisingly. I actually looked forward to going to school, and Covid messed it up for me.

   But quarantine was really stressful. My house was loud, as loud as thunder. But the thunder was on repeat weekdays from 7am- 12:20am. I’m the type of person who just stays in my room and never comes out unless it’s for food, cause why would I?  I got everything I could need for entertainment in my room. But this time I just stayed in my room, and didn’t come out. I didn't even leave for dinner. But I did leave my room for dinner around 12-2Am. It was peaceful. It was the only time my house was quiet and didn't have to deal with the constant screaming and yelling. Due to that I had really messed up my sleeping schedule.  I hated being out of my room because of the constant loud noises. It was more relaxing and quiet in my room, like a hot shower.                                                But during those hours I had a lot of time to think. I usually sat in bed around 3 in the morning thinking, thinking about my life, the pandemic, friends, and about society. Thinking’s easier for me whenever I'm playing games or laying in bed after a hot relaxing shower, It always feels more natural. I had realized a lot about society, like how terrible it is. Like when people ask you how you’re doing but don’t really care about it or to be happy and smile all the time, or how it’s wrong to be able to express any negative emotions. I’m not really a person who gets mad, and I usually don't get stressed either, but whenever I show anger people look at me like I’m wrong, like it’s not an emotion that I should show. 

I guess when I realized all those things, I had isolated myself. More than usual.