You know what hurts, holding in all the pain, hurt and doubts until you reach the point where it hurts so much you just feel like crying. Everyday i wake up i hope the struggle is over and everyone is happy but it never seems to work out that way. I don't understand how some people take their mom for granted because she is there with you day by day she gets to do everything for you. If i could have that my whole life would be complete i still have my mom in my life but not as much as i want to, i think how life would be if i don't have go day by day trying to hide how i really feel inside. Yeah that will be the day... but i wanna know when its going to get better cause i never seen this family happy, everyone has problems but this is too much but i don't complain because i don't want people to know my struggles, its mine so why not deal with it.