Pain and grief are inevitable. The by the book Christians will tell you that God can never give you more than you can handle and that he gives his toughest battles to his strongest soldiers, but to the not religious, but spiritual people, this makes no sense. We grow up to understand the importance of being a good person, and that God gives us this beautiful life with a beautiful path that we should follow and look into everything through his eyes, but what if we didn’t? What if we saw God as a hawkeye, more or less. 

God will put you through hell and not get you out. He’ll throw you into a swimming pool and let you drown, why is that? True pain and suffering in the eyes of God,  is not god pulling you out of a swimming pool when your drowning. The faithful will say that God is right by me the entire time because he knows you can get through it. 

The mind of the spiritual looks different for everyone. For me, god is here to tell me that he has my back. He isn’t going to save me, or fix me, but he made me this way for a reason. He made me sympathetic and understanding. Kindhearted and sensitive. God works in miraculous ways, but he won’t swoop you off your feet. 

I have seen gods work in people’s lives not by fixing them, but by making them work to fix themselves. The difference in spiritual and religious, is religious people have so much hope in the unknown, while spiritual understands the need for pain and grief, and feel the presense of a man who knows all is going to hold their hand the entire time. 

No one deserves the kind of pain that keeps you stuck at the bottom for what feels like forever, but when you come out of it, you can thank god every day that you dealt with it. Dealing with pain and getting out of it yourself is like training for a race than winning. It is painful, then worth it. You are worth fighting for all of your pain and grief, and you will win the day you realize that God is not here to save you because he made you this strong for a reason.