how could i
have spent
my life waiting
for this,
for you to tell me
with your tiny
broken
words
that you won't
be there
anymore

as you took back
your love
and all your
unspoken promises
i felt no relief
as from a burden
lifted,
only the tenderness
that came with
the bruise
that will remain
eternally
on my heart

(it is in
the shape
of your
smile
when you said
“i love you”)

the harsh cold
of the wind
froze the
tears
on my cheeks
and when i tried
to wash them
off
they burned
like fire,
leaving
invisible scars,
reminders of
you

i knew life
wasn't fair
but i guess i
missed
the part of the
story
where it became so
cruel

(just like i missed
the chapter
warning me
not to fall for
you)

or maybe i did
read it
maybe i knew
all along
and just hoped
you would be
different
and defy
expectations

but you,
impeccably kind,
defied my hopes,
instead
leaving me stranded
on an uncharted island,
watching as the map
slipped
from your silent
fingers

(and even then
i whispered sweet words
to the wind,
still trying
to bring you
back to me)