“Maybe another time” “Have fun without me” “I can’t today sorry”

I came out of the womb with these phrases attached to my tongue 

I want to hang out but then you’ll notice how uncool & socially awkward I am

I can’t have you see the real me because the real me isn’t worth seeing. In my mind   

everyone is talking about me even though I’m not important enough to talk about, everyone is laughing at me even though I’m not funny enough to laugh about.

I fidget, constantly fix my hair and never make enough eye contact to be considered normal

I make overthinking look professional everything in one ear & out the other is my 9-5 job

Hyperventilating is the only way I know how to breathe 

Social anxiety is the only friend I have and even then I still can’t look it in the eyes.