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Little Thinker MAG
I torture myself, it's a fetish
I stick needles - sharpened little memories - into the most sensitive of spots,
Enduring the pain enough to stab with another ... and another ...
It's true, you know ... you get used to the pain
You hurt yourself in one area to dull the pain in another
But it doesn't last; it all comes back in the end
Just work through what's there and learn from your mistakes
I lose myself in this ritual
Rehashing the past again and again, dwelling on my problems
Facing Life head on (nothing is trivial) no need to hide
Once the hurt is gone, you find out who you really are
There's a discomfort that looms over this discovery, and the pain has almost disappeared
I just sit and wait for yet another pin of agony to push what I am away ...
I'm not ready yet
This masochistic routine is becoming what I am and I hate myself for It
But who would I be without it?
She once called me her Little Thinker; I fit the title well
That seems so long ago ... or was it?
Or did I lose myself in another needle
In an attempt to grow stronger and forget ...
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