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Please, Make Me Breathe

March 2, 2011
By RozaB SILVER, Milpitas, California
RozaB SILVER, Milpitas, California
8 articles 0 photos 39 comments

He makes my heart beat.

And I don't mean faster, I mean, he's what makes my heart pump blood.

I mean that without him, I do not pump, I do not live, I do not breathe.

My heart hurts near him, though.

It hurts so badly...

And I just noticed it.

I noticed that when I'm near him

I don't breathe.

I noticed that when I'm near him

I can't speak.

I noticed that when I'm near him

I can't look at him.

For the fear that maybe

just maybe

he'll see it. That he'll know.

Because my eyes will give it away.

And I did not want touch. I want conversation, nearness.

I want to feel safe, like there is someone watching over me. My Guardian Angel.

He doesn't make me feel like I'm in another world, but he makes me feel

like my own world is

perfect.

That I don't need to escape from my world is the most lovely thing I've ever felt.

And now he's gone.

How do you live, how do you breathe

when he's not there to tell you how.

How do you live, how do you breathe,

when your heart does not pump.

And then I realized

to breathe is the most wonderful thing in the world.

And then I realized,

that with out the ability to breathe, you lose the ability to speak.

That without your heart pumping, you cannot love.

Will I ever be able to love again?

I. Can't. Breathe.


The author's comments:
I realized that someone has to make you breathe, and if it happens that I find someone who makes me breathe, I never want to lose them. I. Want. To. Breathe.

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on Jul. 4 2011 at 12:05 pm
Allis-in-Wonderland PLATINUM, Cartersville, Georgia
38 articles 1 photo 63 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Sometimes people leave you...halfway through The Wood. Do not let it grieve you...No one leaves for good. You are not alone, for no one is alone." -Into The Woods

REALLY LOVED IT!

Lit Teacher said...
on Apr. 2 2011 at 2:30 am
Hi Rosa, wow...such a spare style, nicely done! Usually your work is largely figurative, but this is bare bones and therefore more to the emotional core.

KairiL SILVER said...
on Mar. 27 2011 at 11:05 pm
KairiL SILVER, Milpitas, California
8 articles 0 photos 31 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Run your fingers through my soul. For once, just once, feel exactly what I feel, believe what I believe, perceive as I perceive, look, experience, examine. and for one; just once, understand."-Anonymous

Wow. Truly well written, Roza. I can't wait for your next article!