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Into The Darkness

April 24, 2015
By LotusChild PLATINUM, Raleigh, North Carolina
LotusChild PLATINUM, Raleigh, North Carolina
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Favorite Quote:
"Let them hate, so long as they fear me" ~Colligula


Alone in a crowd, don’t speak
Is it because I’m special? Unique?
Or because I’m weak?
My outlook bleak, I’m unsure of what’s next
I take a small step, timid and vexed
And they stare
No they glare

The world fades as their pupils burn through me
Greyness engulfs my world and it is all I see
Why does it matter? What’s the point?
When all I do is disappoint
No longer obsessed with my passions
Too much stress, not enough ration
Spiralling too fast, I think I’m crashing
Abandoned by the world, the loner dies lonely
My sickness is my core, someone hold me
I can’t keep trudging, I don’t care
I don’t want anyone anymore, there
I’m alone, I always will be
That is all I can see, as endless as the sea, I’m free
I’m not hidden, I’m free, this is the only way to be
Lowly and homely, stranger to love, knowing hatred only
And they ask, “are you okay?”
Why gloat? Why taunt me?
These words float and haunt me
For the only answer is “Yes”
They hate you if you say the rest
They despise your honesty
They chastise your modesty
And they stare
No they glare

Ha... Ha!
Yeah, okay, hate me, hate me!
I stopped caring, it doesn’t affect me
You sick of me? Try to afflict me
End me, I dare you,
Because all you can do is stand and brude
A skewed view, scared of this coup
Of this divinity that you can’t get to
You misconstrue this breakthrough
I don’t hate you, I won’t hurt you
I’m not a monster, I withdrew
You win, so don’t get mad because I won’t play
Because I won’t stay for you to hate
I won’t sit and take the abuse
I’ll move on and be of use
So in truth, you lose
And so the pain
It stays a stain
But I move on
I keep on
Go ahead,
Stare, no glare!
I delve deep into darkness
And it still harkens
but I don’t need it
And your hatred
I don’t need it


The author's comments:

The darkness is not always a bad thing, but you should never let it engulf you.


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Beila BRONZE said...
on May. 7 2015 at 1:37 pm
Beila BRONZE, Palo Alto, California
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Favorite Quote:
"The coldest winter I ever spent was a summer in San Francisco." -Mark Twain

Next? Explain, please! :)

on May. 7 2015 at 10:23 am
LotusChild PLATINUM, Raleigh, North Carolina
32 articles 0 photos 62 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Let them hate, so long as they fear me" ~Colligula

Huh, you caught it X3 I didn't expect even you to catch that divinity bit. It's a sneak peek to what comes next ;3

Beila BRONZE said...
on May. 7 2015 at 1:52 am
Beila BRONZE, Palo Alto, California
3 articles 0 photos 516 comments

Favorite Quote:
"The coldest winter I ever spent was a summer in San Francisco." -Mark Twain

Reading it over again, I have no idea why, but the word "divinity"--where it is and what it means there--it feels really, really unexpected from you, and I really, really like it. Sorry I can't articulate it any better.

Beila BRONZE said...
on May. 7 2015 at 1:47 am
Beila BRONZE, Palo Alto, California
3 articles 0 photos 516 comments

Favorite Quote:
"The coldest winter I ever spent was a summer in San Francisco." -Mark Twain

You know what I love about this piece? It's different. You have this unbelievable potential of writing about "heartbreak," though that's too cliche a word for the kind of pain you're able to capture, but with this, you've also shown that you can do more and different. Even though you still have this horror in the words that makes Romeo and Juliet look like a happy ending, it's almost like I'm meant to be uplifted by it. :P Amen to your Author's Note. And on your point about "Are you okay?" I invite you to join me in answering the question honestly. Yes, you'll scare some people off from ever speaking to you again, but was their presence ever worthwhile in the first place? Those who stay to hear you will have gained a respect for you that is rarely found in our modern mess of "kk"s and "nvm"s. The last stanza up until "you lose"... Wow, you were just put here to put words to the feelings I thought I could never express, weren't you? Also, I caught that stare/glare twist in the last stanza- explosive, haunting, YES!!!