the ocean meets the sea where the waves meet salt

and sometimes i feel i am drowning in myself

but then i realize it is not myself at all but the water

it just feels so much like my own body that i forget i am floating at all

and weightless is not the word because i carry the weight of myself

and 6 or 8 pounds extra slung across my hip bones so i don’t float

but it is this weight that makes me feel like i am flying upside down like the clouds are coral muted by light filtration and the fish are seagulls torn by air currents

and fear is not an absolute contraindication

and did you know you can open your eyes in salt water if you close them at the surface