Pouring down your cheeks

Silently begging to be heard

As they cascade down

Disappointment filling your veins

Wanting more and more

Seeing every little flaw

Seeing every imperfection

Surrounded by perfect others

Comparing yourself

Wishing to be them

Hearing voices telling you to be better

Hearing them point out your flaws

Felling their stares

Yet, it’s nonexistent

Only existing to you

The flood releases

Feeling void; lifeless

Wanting to be happier

Feeling no desire or motivation to do so

Staring at the ceiling

Music enveloping you

In a silent symphony 

Thinking back to memories

Regretting past mistakes

Realizing every thing you did wrong

At the same not at all

Thoughts plaguing every single fiber of yourself

Some of the best moments of your life

Most contradicting happiness

Wanting more 

Knowing it’ll never happen

Seeing every aspect alter

Realizing it was too unrealistic

Emotions returning 

Tears falling down 

More and more

Lights off

Darkness invading every possible spot

Underneath layers and layers

Seeking the slightest bit of comfort

And then when you think you had it

It disappeared

Trying to fade into your dreams

Yet they never came

The ceiling mocking you

And when you do fall asleep

You wake up again 

Realizing you never got away

And it returns again the very next morning.