Am I not good enough

Should I apologize

Because to you it seems

That I am not good enough

Because I'm too sensitive

And I get upset over stuff that I shouldn't be

Because I'm too weak

That I can't talk back even if I wanted to

Because I don't deserve it

Because if you look at my eyes and you will see happiness

But what if you you looked inside of me

You will never know the truth

You look at my forced smile

And you think it is real

But you don’t look deeper into my soul

To see that I am not what you see on the outside

Should I apologize

Because I am not good enough

Because I'm a disappointment

To my parents who think I'm spoiled

Because I'm a bad role model

To my sisters who always cause trouble

Because I'm a bad liar

And I even can't lie without stalling

Should I apologize

Because in your eyes 

I am not good enough

Should I apologize

That I am a dereliction in your heart

That I am a nugatory mount of debris

That you're waiting to get rid of

At the garbage dump far far away

So that there’s no way to go back

Should I apologize

Even though I'm trying every day

To be good enough

To be the person you want me to be

But you can't see it

Can you

Either you're blind

Or you don't care enough to see it

But maybe it's the truth

Maybe I'm just not good enough

Should I apologize

That I still haven't given up

I wish you weren't so blind

That you can't see I'm trying 

To be 

Good

Enough