i had planned this for months
maybe years
it had to be today otherwise it wouldnt be right
i knew how it would go
after all, i have planned my death for a while

nobody noticed the signs
nobody noticed how i stopped caring about things i used to love
nobody saw me anymore

it was sunset and i was running
running to what some would call doom
running to what i call freedom
freedom from rules and expectations
i get to choose how this part of my life goes, that's true freedom to me

i had been watching the sunsets lately
its how i decided what time i would do it
the sunset would be my last view and it would be gorgeous
one last beautiful view before i can finally breathe

some would probably call me a quitter
a coward
selfish

i call myself brave
brave to accept that i cannot change anything
brave to make my own choice
brave to not let society make the choice for me
i am brave

and i am f
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                   l
                      l
                         i
                           n
                               g
                                   down
                                                                but now i am free
                                                                                       and i am happy.