As the sun rises I get this unbearable  pain knowing I have to come here  

This drains the person I really am 

Sometimes it's so bad i have outburst on why and the want to withdraw 

10 plus years of this and everything is still a blur 

School makes the nervousness fill my body 

Everyone gossips ,everyone judging even teachers 

Well not me..

The sickness ,being in this dark cold place gives my head an icky feeling 

Is this it ? Will I make it there ?  Will I walk that stage? 

Anxiety folds over my body the feeling of not being able to breath 

I sometimes wonder how people go here everyday and feel safe 

My mind tends to spiral school work, home, grades , good enough? 

I sit here day by day wondering when this hell will all end    

The feeling of no one seeing you being successful 

No one seems yet to care 

Now i shake under pressure wondering if I will ever be good enough to make it out

of this never ending loud building 

The uncomfortable is almost over

I hope …