Don’t you understand futility?

The despair?

The lack of everything?

And yet you’ve chosen to move forward?

Are you arrogant?

Or unreasonable?

Or perhaps just plain stupid?

Cause I don’t get it;

I don’t get you;

I don’t even want to begin to get you!

And yet,

I still don’t understand

No matter what I try to do,

No matter what I’ve already done,

I just can’t help  wanting to indulge myself,

In those deep eyes that hold me captive,

In your hair that I constantly want to ruffle,

In your reflection in the water,

And maybe I even want to try to believe in your mindset,

That maybe I should try to enjoy myself a little more

Because this is my only shot at this life

Maybe at the end

It was futile to pretend 

That I don’t like you.