twenty three days until the big one six but i feel like it's just the same as when we were kids

i say we like it's not just me, i sit here and watch the days go by and all that changes is the calendar page. 

twenty two days until i'm sixteen

it feels like i've seen everything 

but i'm not even sixteen. 

twenty one days until the big one six 

i'm terrified of the change in twenty days

its not that different, but my friends talk about politics?

twenty days until i'm sixteen. 

nineteen days and if I think anymore 

I might just heave. 

I'm not aloud out the back door anymore

No more play time for me

Eighteen days and I'm the DD

except, not literally 

I'm just the driver sent for every task

Seventeen more days until the big one six  

I need to get a job, but no one wants under sixteen so i'll put it on the rack 

Sixteen days I'm just watching my friends grow up, I need to pick up the slack

Fifteen more days until i'm sixteen. 

Fourteen days and I think I want to fall in love but I don't know what love is, do i?
Ten days until the big one six and I feel that certain kind of loneliness everyone feels around their birthday, right?

Nine days until, and I'm sleeping in my moms bed and my chest feels tight

nine days and its like i'm six all over again

while he yells, cause dad's always right

Eight days and can finally write but it feels built from spite 

One more week until I'm sixteen

and I can't go back after that

Maybe i'm the one turning green

But i'm not jealous, i think

Six more days and I don't know what to do with my life it feels like my emotions are a maze and i can't find the end

Five days and I'd like to be by the ocean or maybe in the stars, somewhere I don't have to make amends. 

Four more days and I think I might cry

they're asking about gifts and i just lie 

Three days until the big one six. 

Two days and my friends all have dates and I've barely even held his hand I don't want them to leave me. 

One day until the big one.