We haven’t talked in forever

I don't miss you,

I realize you were like a brick wall that I was crashing into

You never had the same energy,

Rather you depleted mine

Drowning in the words I tried to say

Dead surrounded by empty sentences

I don’t miss you

What I was yearning for in you,

Wasn’t you

It was what I had created in the absence of you

A metaphorical idealization of what I wanted you to be

A part of you that used to be but is no longer there

I romanticized us, created love letters,

While you were creating eulogies 

I watched as the photos of us burned

Charred golden

You didn't care to stay and mourn

So I sit and wonder why I cared so much

When you never truly cared

So now I stand contempt in my failure

Accepting defeat 

Moving on past something 

Long gone