She smiled at me - a grimace

And greeted me politely: as if she had never abandoned 

As if she had never abandoned 

Unhanded, demanded ... my Being 

And she sat there and smiled at me - a grimace 

My heart sky dived into a blizzard of black 

A child screamed - pulsed - was she a trap?

Felt like falling 

Crawling on an ocean 

Of wasabi peas and memories 

Anticipatory prophecies.

Was I wrong?

Defective?

Defective...

Defective.

Could I live

When we died 

When I know that the trees that embrace the wicked wonder of me 

Fall, felled, unable, repeating,

Unauthentically

The wicked wonder of me 

I drowned - a salt water sabotage 

A frightened child shows me a collage of trembles and fog

I was sinking and she smiles

And she smiled 

And she smiled peacefully 

And she smiled at me - a grimace