I wish you could see the world through my eyes

But for that to happen, you would have to be baptized.

Brought into the world--reborn again

But for that to happen, you would have to get to know me then.

I know I shouldn’t have feelings for you, but I can’t help myself

I put you on a pedestal, like the books on my bookshelf. 

It was a sunny afternoon with the natural light shining through the gaps between the wooden paneling blinds

When I find that I can’t get you out of my mind.

And at night when I get lonely, it’s you I think of

My sister says you are my newest infatuation, but it’s not love.

I should just trust her because of all people she would know

I always have and always will be living in her shadow.

But those days were so much fun

We were existing, breathing, bathing in the sun!

And later we would talk about life and books and school 

And it felt nice to be wanted and not feel like a fool. 

I led my guard down for you and only you 

But now it has been ripped from me like a bottle and its corkscrew.