Hearing my friends chatter about their adventures

Silence

Buzzing and fluttering of words all around

My lack of things to say speak louder than the words all around me

Silence 

Fun 

How fun it would be to go

Yet i stay

I lack a reason anymore

Maybe i want to stay

Yet i can't tell if i want to go

I can't feel a reason

I can't hear a reason

I taste a lack of reasoning 

And i can't see anything 

Not for one not for both

Silence

It stings

It stings for a few moments

I feel everything for a few moments

It doesn't matter

Will they envy me?

I don't feel too depressed or sad

Just like missing out

Silence

On going to an undisclosed place

For an undiscovered period of time

People all undergoing a struggle

Undercut, Underbid,

Would it be our undoing?

The choice was made, all underway

Undecided

Should I even have gone to Malvern?