It's terrifying

When you start to realize…

That you might be different

You try to convince yourself

that its not true

I'm not like that

I’m just making things up in my head

I can’t be like that

Then you come to the conclusion,

you are like that,

and you can't change it

I don't know how I realized,

but it took a while,

I was so against it 

I was so scared

Were people going to see me differently,

my friends,

my family

I dont wanna tell them

It was terrifying

But one day I got the courage,

I told my parents and a weight was lifted off my shoulders

then I told my best friend, and my other friends, and my teammates

and now I'm not so so scared anymore

I am now ok with who I am