Dear Someday,
How have you been?
I havent heard from you in a while...
How is my love?
How are my children?
How is my career, and my husband's too?
Has my sister been married yet?
Have my brothers done well?
And my parents, do they send their love?
Do my children accompany me to mass on Sunday?
Does the sun shine where you are?
Tell me, please tell me,
For I know nothing of how they are,
I need to know.
You have kept such secrets from me.
I want to know that my children are well,
that my sister and brothers are happy,
I need to know that my husband loves me,
and that my parents approve of me,
I must see that everything is fine.
but you say nothing,
you write nothing,
You reveal nothing
but why...?
Do you reveal nothing...
beause there IS nothing?
Do I no longer have children?
No husband, no siblings to speak of?
Am i alone?
What has happened?
Why have you not told me?
Why did you not warn me?
Please, you cause me so much pain!
Reveal to me what I worry about at night,
the fears that cause my tears,
the nightmares that accompany me...
But my dear Someday, you tell me nothing.
You are incapable of responding.
You are but a name,
but a word,
but a cursed word that I cling to.
Someday....
but you... my someday... can reveal nothing...
Nothing yet.
But I will keep talking to you.
I long for you,
My Someday...
I wish to hear from you soon...

Much love, and All my dreams...
~Lucy~