Leaving to you the bruised appearance
Because of the absence in my deliverance
My shameful alibi of a fake world
Leaves me broken from all my afterwards
A demon sleeps upon my back
From my heart to my mind
He seals the crack
I feel I am a childhood illusion
Breaking the barriers of delusion
Actions presented to me when I was young
Has left my motivation for the future
Undone
I kill myself with every misunderstood
memory
Trying to create something for myself
Is an old obituary
I use all my waking effort
trying to love another
I am everything I’ve been afraid of
And my goal is to rise above this
I’m the only disease I have left
To fight against
This is just one release I need
To build my defense
Never did I feel so faithless
Never did I feel so absent to myself
My heart is so full of pain
From the strains I’ve built
With everyone I’ve been to scared to
Love
My goals are full, but mislead
I feel dead in the pains I’ve gained
In the absence of myself