I hate that I never got the chance to know you
Hate that I can’t remember your face
I can’t remember your voice
Your smile

It hurts that it was your choice to leave
Leave everything behind for good
Leave all of us here
Leave me

I cry because you were supposed to be here
For my first day of preschool
My first ever lost tooth
My first love

I ache because you weren’t there for my fourth birthday
You won’t be there for my driver’s test
Won’t be there for graduation
For my wedding

I scream because you caused all this
Caused my hurt, my pain
Caused distress
My hate

And most of all, I love
I love you, my dad
Gone but never
Forgotten