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Courage

March 12, 2011
By LilStinka SILVER, Lynden, Washington
LilStinka SILVER, Lynden, Washington
5 articles 4 photos 27 comments

Favorite Quote:
Advice is what we ask for when we already know the answer but wish we didn&#039;t. - Erica Jong<br /> Tis an ill cook that cannot lick his own fingers. - Shakespeare


Constantly insulted but hiding the hurt behind a smile
Do you know what it feels like when even your own mom thinks your
worthless,
ugly,
stupid,
a waste of space
A constant battle within me
Am I stupid?
Am I ugly?
Am I worthless?
Am I really truly just a wasted space that could be better filled by a desk or a chair?
I want to get out of here
I want to like myself again,
To finally be myself,
Not hiding behind false pretenses.
A smile for them, a laugh for him, whispered gossip with the girls,
But I don’t care about any of that because I’m doing none of it as the person I really want to be,
The person I can never let out, the one I hide inside.
No one knows her, no one has a clue.
I’ve created a fake me to shield myself from the cuts and bruises I barely survived before.
My armor against a world that wants to bring me to my knees,
But it’s getting heavy, it’s dragging me down, I want to throw it off.
I’m so afraid of what might happen though,
Afraid of being hurt all over again and not surviving the next round.
I have to. I have to stop caring about what they think.
If I ever want to be happy, finally be free I have to find the courage to just be me.



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on May. 11 2011 at 3:01 pm
LilStinka SILVER, Lynden, Washington
5 articles 4 photos 27 comments

Favorite Quote:
Advice is what we ask for when we already know the answer but wish we didn&#039;t. - Erica Jong<br /> Tis an ill cook that cannot lick his own fingers. - Shakespeare

thank you! :)

 


lola said...
on Apr. 11 2011 at 10:25 am
this poem is great...

kizzy GOLD said...
on Apr. 8 2011 at 8:56 pm
kizzy GOLD, Myrtle Beach, South Carolina
11 articles 0 photos 7 comments

Favorite Quote:
time heals all wounds...

that was amazing

on Apr. 8 2011 at 8:43 pm
twisted2013 GOLD, Ignacio, Colorado
10 articles 0 photos 4 comments

Favorite Quote:
DO GIVE UP STAND UP AND FIGHT BACK

courage is what we all need and mom my wasnt tha one tellin me things like that it was my dad

on Apr. 8 2011 at 6:46 am
just-a-joy GOLD, Indianapolis, Indiana
12 articles 0 photos 71 comments

Favorite Quote:
Eminem: Success is my only option, failure&#039;s not

omg tis is so good i can relate

on Apr. 7 2011 at 7:53 am
hottsoup11 BRONZE, Mulberry, Florida
4 articles 0 photos 2 comments

Favorite Quote:
Try and try until you can&#039;t try anymore.

This is an amazing poem.