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why am i here

September 14, 2011
By Anonymous

time flies by
yet this pain never subsides
all the nights without sleep
so many times i have cried
all because people have lied

everyday i awaken
dreading each and every breath
i am such a mistake
i shouldn't be here
by all rights
i should be dead

abandoned by both parents at birth
i have always walked this road alone
the path i walk is treacherous

people are out to get me
beating me
they give me no chance to fight back
i have been through this so many times before
always choosing to get up off the floor


i wish i could just live in my dreams
never awakening
oh,
how great would that be

that cant happen though
i must face reality
my eyes have seen so much
my mind has been through hell and back

always rising from the darkness
extinguishing the flames
they spread like wildfire
burning all the memories from my past
no longer can i look back

so much pain was felt
honestly
im surprised im still alive
but still
im dying inside
please
exchange exchange lives with me
i want to know what its like to be someone else
let me see the world threw another persons eyes

my life has no color
its black and white
full of pain and loss

my life came with a cost
and i feel as if im drowning in debt
without saying goodbye
she up and left
now soaring with the angels
why would a mother take herself away from her children
a note was never found
leaving us with so many questions
all i want is an explanation of why.

© Anonymous

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fallen_angel420 PLATINUM said...
on Sep. 28 2011 at 8:34 am
fallen_angel420 PLATINUM, Centerville, Ohio
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It has been said, ‘time heals all wounds.’ I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone.

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everybody loses someone they love in their lifetime , i am no different than anyone else , i guess i just deal with it different than most .
Anonymous_7 SILVER said...
on Sep. 27 2011 at 10:28 pm
Anonymous_7 SILVER, Branson, Missouri
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I'm sorry.
fallen_angel420 PLATINUM said...
on Sep. 26 2011 at 8:17 am
fallen_angel420 PLATINUM, Centerville, Ohio
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i dont focus on it, my mothers death sometimes consumes me , it not something i can get not think about , honestly , i think about her everyday , if i had to guess i would say i think about her almost 15 times a day ....when her death consumes me, and sends me into a depression is when i usually write
fallen_angel420 PLATINUM said...
on Sep. 25 2011 at 11:54 pm
fallen_angel420 PLATINUM, Centerville, Ohio
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this is my life, welcome to my world....

 

fallen_angel420 PLATINUM said...
on Sep. 25 2011 at 11:51 pm
fallen_angel420 PLATINUM, Centerville, Ohio
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It has been said, ‘time heals all wounds.’ I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone.

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thank you SO much ... :) this poem means alot to me...
Anonymous_7 SILVER said...
on Sep. 22 2011 at 9:35 pm
Anonymous_7 SILVER, Branson, Missouri
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You are a wonderful writer! Keep it up! I would try not to focus to much on all the depressing things in life :)
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on Sep. 22 2011 at 8:38 pm
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This is a wonderful poem and you are a wonderful writer. This is a sad poem but its so amazing andit has so many emotions in it. You did a fantastic job on this.
Leapdaybaby212 GOLD said...
on Sep. 22 2011 at 4:25 pm
Leapdaybaby212 GOLD, Tampa, Florida
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aww this is so sad! you're an amazing writer! check out some of my work please :)
Mrs.parez said...
on Sep. 22 2011 at 1:19 pm
wow yes it is..lexie lue
lexie lue:) said...
on Sep. 22 2011 at 12:38 pm

This is so sad in the first couple stanzas.

I really feel bad for people whos lives are really like that!

just-a-joy GOLD said...
on Sep. 22 2011 at 10:43 am
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this is very relatable if you can try to look at some of my stuff too  
fallen_angel420 PLATINUM said...
on Sep. 22 2011 at 8:27 am
fallen_angel420 PLATINUM, Centerville, Ohio
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It has been said, &lsquo;time heals all wounds.&rsquo; I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone.

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thank you....

 

fallen_angel420 PLATINUM said...
on Sep. 20 2011 at 7:59 pm
fallen_angel420 PLATINUM, Centerville, Ohio
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Thank you vry much !
The.Peahen said...
on Sep. 20 2011 at 4:47 pm
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Thats amazing

Its beautiful and emotional

lifegoeson said...
on Sep. 19 2011 at 9:03 pm
beautiful..