TODAY
I want to 
scream, cry,
run, die, 
laugh like a mad man, 
Panic,
Hide under covers,
Lie in the fetal position,
Panic,
Curse morning never to come, 
Panic,
And rush time to move faster. 
I want to
Beg to my mama,
Hide in my room,
Leave town behind,
call up my friend,
Have her talk sense into me,
And leave her alone for her sake. 
I'm a ball of chaos
With no anchor;
A roaring sea. 
I feel like I'll implode, 
Explode, 
And melt 
All at the same time. 
I regret going through with it
And regret not preparing. 
I blame myself
The piano
The weather
The heavens
My life
Myself
The piano
The heavens
My life
Myself 
The heavens
The weather
Myself 
The weather
The piano
And ultimately,
Myself