you know that moment where your mind won’t stop racing?

where your stomach clenches

and your heart won’t slow down?

you don’t know why but you can’t seem to relax.

it’s a terrifying place to be

but now it’s home to me.

thank you for that.

for the anxiety

for the fear

for not allowing me to trust anyone anymore.

i don’t know what i would have done without you.

now i wish i knew

i wish you would just get out of my head.

i wish it was that easy.

it was impossible to walk away.

but i did it

again

and again

and again.

now walk out of my head

and get on with your life

so i can get on with mine.

if only it were that easy.

not a day goes by without you haunting my thoughts.

some good

some bad

some worse.

it’s all maddening

after a while i am afraid to think of you

of anything

because it all comes back to you.

you were my everything.

now you should be nothing.

if only you would walk out of my mind

and out of my life completely