Why now?
When you have gained so many in your love
You come home to just swing back
Hospitals beds, nurses, shots, more chemo will it ever end?
Your body is less than the fortress of a miracle
More a hut of new medicines and treatments,
Like a lab rat being helplessly punished for the life they didn’t choose
Will it ever end?
No it can’t because that means the end of you
I’m not ready for that not yet, we are too close, like vines running together
Only finding each other in the lost forest to intertwine
You touched my life and pushed me to the light
I had my hardships but you had a storm with your ship going under
They drowned you with anything to make you feel better
You can’t breathe anymore and we all are on a desperate attempt to find a lifeboat
But no
God took you as his fisher, no longer able to serve us lost at sea
We are to follow our own sunsets and look for you in the crest of every wave
And your son? He can walk his life saying his mother was the strongest
She had more muscles than Hercules and a heart of a lion
No matter how many visits to the gym nothing will bring the strength you carry
For it is only obtained through the worst circumstances
There is no muscle to chisel to bear life’s twists
How many kids at the age of two know how to love a mother?
He shines with your pride, and love, he express what you cannot
You lay there not the same, dead on the outside but inside is not that way
You give us hope, tell stories even when you are asleep,
You taught me my greatest lessons with not one word spoken
To love no matter how hard, to always smile, and that people will judge you by what you do not by what you say
As you lay, all I can say is not today, not this way, as you slowly drift away
To the seas of heaven, I shall sail my boat in the light of your impassable hope
Because you needed to die to show us we must live