Most days I want to cry, and f---ing scream at the top of my lungs

I really want my mommy back; look at the monster that you’ve become

I haven’t seen you for long long time

I try to act tough and force this fake smile



You love that life more than you love me

I know you’re hurting momma, but it won’t set you free

You’ve had it in your hands for as long as I can remember

Add up all those years, its nothing compared to my fear



The fear of you lying to me
The fear of you dying on me
The fear of being able to have much faith in you

To just left crying…

You promised me the world, you promised me the sky

But all these years later, they were nothing but f---ing lies

Nothing but Pain

Nothing but heartache

Nothing but misery and hopelessness

It’s okay now mom, I see, I understand. You choose it over me



I’ve told you face to face, with tears running down my cheeks

But not even that was enough to make you see



GODDAMN IT Mom!
Goddamn it...

You tell me you’re clean; you know how to give me so much hope

But a few days later you’re back to your ways
you're back to the same old dope fiend you once were



You’ve showed me so very much, but the one thing I have in mind is

Showing me how important a mother is and should be

And to never show my children the pain that you showed me



Now please don’t get me wrong mom, I really love you so

And I always will, forever and always

But as of right now all this pain I feel needs to be let go



All the worrying, and all the crying, mom you’re sick and you’re dying..

Cant you see that mom?
Cant you see that...?

I want you in my life, but not if you’re going to bring me down

I’m not going down that path of misery with you

that's were I must draw the line



So as of today, as of right now this very moment I’m setting myself free

Why?

Because I know, I know, there is a stronger woman in me