Every day I grow a little bit older
As time goes by, I feel a little bit stronger
Felling again, I can tell I’m a little bit bolder.
My heart, alone, is still oh so colder.

Ladies and gentle man, please have a seat.
I have a story about the cold and the heat.
A story about a fire that once burned
And then put out by a misfortunate turn
Choices we live with for the rest of our lives
Oh how I believed all of her jives
And then wound up hurt, miserably in pain
Found nothing to fight for, nothing to gain
And then time started moving, and I slowly healed
I realized that to her command I no longer kneeled

Oh, I’m sorry; why don’t I start from the beginning?
So you can decide for yourself this story’s meaning
Thus was the night of January 24th 2013
A friend became more than just a friend to me
She told me she liked me, and I had only a few reasons to turn her down
I admit I didn’t like her that way, but I took my chance to block out a frown.
I think I made her day, how can I have not
With me she got what she desperately sought

We were now a couple, I aimed to be the best I can be
I was drunk with the thought that she truly loved me
LIES! I say, who knows what was going through her head
But at the time, I believed everything she had said.
I held her hand, I kissed her lips
I thought her love was for keeps
And I dedicated myself, tried my best to be the best I can be
All I did, I did because I was under the impression she loved me

As days turned to weeks, I too began to feel myself slipping.
This didn’t seem like my doom, it seemed like a new beginning
I fell in love; I was oblivious to the pains that would bring me
I had no idea how she will use that to bring me to my knees.
But at the time, I had no idea what all this meant
She was my little piece of heaven that the all mighty has sent
Mind you, this is only our second week together
At the time I was totally ok with not being with her forever
But as time continued, she became more and more important to me.
With her forever I wanted to be
But then something clicked in my head
To others, the stuff she said.
The love of my life, nothing but a whore
She had her fun with me, now I’m nothing but a bore
Even when I was there, she would go up to other boys
Tell them she loved them; with my heat she toyed
And I was defenseless; there was little I can do
I loved her even more than I ever knew
I tried telling her how bad her actions hurt me,
And she would still go to others and start flirting
And I couldn’t break up with her and go my separate ways
Cause with her I wanted to spend the rest of my days
So I allowed myself to hurt and hurt again
Hoping she’d grow up without throwing our love down the drain


She was always so mean to me
While I was nothing to her, she was everything to me
And I loved her with all my heart,
She saw me as a tool from the very start
A stepping stone, someone to step on, one her way to better things
The things she did to me really did sting.

Three months later, somewhere in early April
I became paranoid that she was no longer faithful
My fire burned, but just barely these days
I began to question all the things she says
But I didn’t let all that turn me into something I’m not
I still did my best to be the boyfriend she sought

She never stopped hurting me; she became more of a flirt
Had I know what I know now, I would’ve stayed away from the very start

I remember little from these traumatic times
But I remember enough to paint an image of some of her crimes
I remember how close she got to another boy
Dominic practically became her man toy
And I was still there suffering away
Loved her enough that I had to stay
I told her what she was doing, she was being a whore
She said it’s nothing like that, on her friends love she sore
But even then I could see how she looked at him
As I saw all this I became little bit more grim
It was partly my fault for the way she became
I convinced her she was beautiful, and not at all lame
I told her she was smart, and that all other boys are jealous of me
I told her how much I loved her and how with her I’ll always be
And I think it got to her, she thought she had a chance
With other boys, while around my heart she danced
And she knew what she was doing, the pain she brought
She didn’t care, no longer was I the boy she sought
And I died in her hands over and over again
Fighting the monster that cannot be slain
Her heart that once filled me with heat from the fire that burned
Now was the source of all the cold and miserable pain that formed

We were always on the verge of breaking up since the bringing of April
But my fire that burned kept out the cold.

On July 23rd, a day before our half-year anniversary
I was officially finally free
But after being enslaved for all this time
Cast out into the world without a dime
No more she said, this relationship is over
With her, I will not be forever
And I died again and again in the days to come
Darkness engulfed me, not a speck of sun
After the breakup, she said things to me
Apparently I’m fat and poor and just some nobody
And I told her, I’m sorry for all my crimes
If she would give me another chance just one more time
I loved her; it wasn’t supposed to end like this
I wanted her even though she took away all of life’s bliss
And she said no, never told me what I did wrong
Only that I’ve been a nobody for far too long
And then she did something that hurt me again
Something that left another stain
She stopped talking to me for weeks to come
Treated me as if I was nothing but a scum
We became less than strangers; a friend I lost
Loving her, so much it has cost
I lost my sense of self, I lost my will
I lost my happiness and I was ready to kill
Myself because life hurts too much,
None left to give me another gentle touch

And I died, but I came back to life
My friends stood by me, took away the knife
And I lived, I barely survived
It took some time before I could start to thrive
And as we bring an end to this story that took months to compose
Containing the stuff I had to go through, some of life’s blows
But there is still more that I can say
About how things are turning out today

For me I’m happy, but I know I can do more
Sometimes I find life to be such a huge bore
And I miss the love that I once had
Wishing for someone to step up and take away the sad
And love me for who I am
And ill love her will all that I can

My friends they saved a life, little do they know it
They know what they mean to me even if I don’t truly show it
They showed me that life is worth living
They showed me ways life can be forgiving
And my friends did something I desperately sought
They showed care and loyalty; by my side they fought

And the girl who is the root of all this pain
By breaking up, there was little she gained
Rumors tell me she is after another boy
She wants to make Thane her new man toy
All I can say is good luck mi amor
You’re not my worries anymore

Now to end the story and all that I have said,
To end with the authors final comments
This love story of my life is only the first
By letting it end, it’s not gonna be my last
Maybe I’ll get lucky next time
Maybe my second love will only be mine
There are plenty of fish out in the sea
In the very least, one of them must have been meant for me.