I think
he thinks
I love him,
I let him joke with me,
only cuz I'm comfortable around him.
I let him play around with me,
Only cuz I know he won't cross my borders.
I kissed him on the cheek,
Only cuz I needed to thank him,
in a way that he'll know I mean it.
I should be cautious about him,
cuz no one who ever cared for me,
stays for long.

No matter what I do,
I don't love him.
I don't,
cuz I don't want to hurt him.
I don't,
cuz I don't know what I'm capable of.
I don't,
Cuz I do know what I have done in the past.
I don't,
cuz I don't think I can love,
The way he deserves to be loved.
I don't
because he is still madly in love,
with his ex.