The only things I know
Is abandonment
And drowning in my own tears
If someone comes into my life
And they don't leave within a week
Without reason or goodbye
You can find me alone
Trying to hide my insanity
Trying to rid myself of the person
Trying anything to get them to leave
Because with them it doesn't feel right
I push them away as hard as possible
I surround myself with sky high brick walls
Finally when they are at the boiling point
They will walk out of my life
And they will be so much happier
I won't be happy
In fact
I will miss them dearly
But between my lonely walls
Everything inside of me eases
Sighing and sinking to floor
Clutching my chest
Whispering almost to the point of silence
"That's better. Just Me. Myself. And I."


So if you come around
Expecting to stay,
Don't.