Why is it
That when I need to do homework
All I can do
Is obsess over the future

I’m worried
I’m really worried that we’ll fall apart
Or you’ll meet someone new
Or something will happen to split us up
It’s probably my biggest fear

I don’t want to lose you
I really don’t
You matter more than anything else
To me

You’re there for me
When I’m sad
Or angry
Or upset for any reason

Do you remember that time
I was feeling dysphoric
So you took me to the garden
Gave me your hoodie (the one with the hole)
Sat me down on the bench
And just listened to me
And told me you’ve felt the same

That was when I knew I loved you

That’s why it only took me a week to say
‘I love you’
Because I already did
I loved you that night in the garden
I loved you during those times that you would run over to me and show me you were listening to a song that I liked
I loved you at the Hanukkah party
I even loved you that night at the bookstore
When we met
When we talked
I never believed in love at first sight
Until I met you

So yes,
You could say that I’m crazy
For obsessing over the future

But the truth is
I’ve never loved anyone more
Than I love you

I love seeing you in the morning
After I’ve waited since we said goodnight
To see you again

I love the way you smile
With your dimple
Only on the right side
It’s one of the many things that makes you beautiful

I love the way
You make me feel alive
And happy to be alive

I love doing things with you
All the songs
And shows
And movies
That we’ve listened to or watched together

I love our little walks
When we go to narnia
And when we’re crouched down
Underneath tree branches
And you kiss me

You make me feel like the luckiest
Girl
Boy
Person
Alive

Words can’t describe the way you make me feel
So I guess that’s why I write
To try and describe it
Knowing that maybe
Someday
I’ll find the perfect words
To say
I love you