You used to be my best friend
We always had so much fun
But as I grew older and learned new things
You threatened me with a gun

You told me to go kill myself
That your life would be so much better
But, even so, I always took the initiative
To write you an apology letter

But you don't deserve my apology
You don't even deserve my heart
From the countless birthdays you've ignored
You tore our family apart

Your pride had gotten the best of you
But you don't care at all
You don't pick a day to snap
You push me until I fall

You hate to see me happy
With someone that's not you
You hate him for no reason
Because he loves me, true

You cannot stand to see me smile
Because he gives me love
You bring up memories of long ago
Of why you should be above

But how can you really blame me?
For having more love for this man
When all you've done so recently
Is hurt me by your hand?

How can you expect me to look up to you?
After everything you've said
How I was a mistake
I should have been aborted
That you wish I was dead

Don't blame me
And most certainly don't blame him
But blame yourself that you've lost my love
I'll never let your hatred win

You can curse
And yell
And scream at me too
But there's one thing I'll make sure of
I will never be like you