I find myself still tearing up over you
The mere sound of a beat in a song
The wind hitting my face while driving with the car windows down
The walks I take outside
Somehow each one sends me into a flashback of all our moments with one another
And I cry..
I couldn't tell you why I cry or how I even end up at the same s***ty points where i feel like I can't breath because you're not there with me this time
I don't know what inside of me compels me to still feel any emotion to you that isn't regret
But somehow my heart still breaks at everything because I know deep down I've suppressed a feeling of love and longing for my home inside your arms
It's cheesy to say but every damn time your name is formed by the sound vibrations ringing my ear drum I want to scream and run away but I also want to move toward you and that noise so I can feel at ease once again
I've never felt so much of a longing for any single thing in this chaotic world except for you and it's bad to say because I know you've moved on while I wallow in self pity and inferior emotion
But there's just something about you that I can't let go of and because of that I still find myself tearing up over you... over our songs, over our memories and hangout spots.... And as one flashback hits me and another and another...
I cry.