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Ugly colors

September 28, 2018
By Stardust19 SILVER, Denver, Colorado
Stardust19 SILVER, Denver, Colorado
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Favorite Quote:
You start something you finish it. -Me.


[Lyric]:
I am so young and I am so full of it, I made to many mistakes I repeat them like a cycle
I keep on hurting my family and friends these people try to help me, I just push them away
Because all people want to do is get what they need, and then they leave me that is all they do
It’s sad I know but that is all I see in my eyes own eyes (that all I see, that is all I see!)
I wouldn’t survive right now I would probably be in a ditch somewhere I only survived
I only survive because of my mother and yet I disrespect her so much I keep on doing that
I try not to but I just can’t help myself I don’t know what wrong with me I am insane

I feed off pain and misery of others like a leech, I don’t want to change because what is the point
When I do people always judging me, they are always never giving me a chance (never, never)
People need to know the truth about me not the fake me the real me
If people don’t like me after this song I don’t care anymore no I don’t (I don’t care at all)
I only show people what they want to see this mask that is not real well no more
I am taking off the mask I am throwing it away under this mask is a miserable boy
I have these ugly colors I have these ugly colors these colors is who I am
This is who I am and how I was created too be it is all my fault

 

 

I cause pain and misery where ever I go when I try to make friends I make enemies
I cause people to feel bad inside themselves I either make people cry or make them angry
I am like leech but except I suck on attention and pain it is all my fault
It is just who I am this is who I am I don’t care if people like me anymore
I honesty do care what people think of me I am an insecure person yes I am
I am a weakling, I do need to change my ways but I don’t want to I just don’t
This is be me and this is how I feel about myself yes I do


I feed off pain and misery of others I don’t want to change because what is the point
Because when I do people always judge me so what is the point I will tell you my ugly colors
When I do people always judging me, they are always never giving me a chance (never, never)
People need to know the truth about me not the fake me the real me
If people don’t like me after this song I don’t care anymore no I don’t (I don’t care at all)
I only show people what they want to see this mask that is not real well no more
I am taking off the mask I am throwing it away under this mask is a miserable boy
I have these ugly colors I have these ugly colors these colors is who I am
This is who I am and how I was created too be it is all my fault

I don’t want to keep this inside of me I judge others when I should be judging myself
I don’t listen to anyone I that guy that gets in trouble I that guy that cause drama
I that guy the monster the ugly duckling I that guy that doesn’t take no beef
I that guy that doesn’t hold back from anything I am even losing hope
What is the point I just feel sad and pain, I feel it everyday


People need to know the truth because if I hide this beast it will tear me apart
When I do people always judging me, they are always never giving me a chance (never, never)
People need to know the truth about me not the fake me the real me
If people don’t like me after this song I don’t care anymore no I don’t (I don’t care at all)
I only show people what they want to see this mask that is not real well no more
I am taking off the mask I am throwing it away under this mask is a miserable boy
This is who I am and how I was created too be it is all my fault

[Subconscious]:
You don’t deserve pity no you don’t but what I you need do is straight up and act right
You don’t deserve pity because all the bad things you have done you messed up
Deal with you’re a human being human beings make mistakes don’t bring yourself down
Things aren’t going to change in less you change themselves so lyric stop feeling sorry for yourself
Stop talking and start taking action so go out there and change them ugly colors
Change them ugly colors to beautiful colors I know your human but change your ways
If you don’t you will end up being alone and everyone will hate you so come on get your head up
Think of it like this it can be far worse yes it can be grateful for what you got


People need to know the truth because if I hide this beast it will tear me apart
If people don’t like me after this song I don’t care no I don’t care at all I don’t care
I only show people what they want to see the fake side of me not the real side
I have these ugly colors I have these ugly colors these colors is who I am
This is who I am and how I was created too be it is all my fault

 


Stop disrespecting our mother because she is trying to do the best she can do
But she is a single mother raising two kids making a living barely
You need to thank her once in a while because she could give up anytime
She is giving you an example to lead and to never give up yet you’re blind
You don’t see it dude wake up and smell the coffee open your eyes pay attention
You may be homeless and live in a van but mother is making sure you live and surviving
You can do something about it and change your situation because if you don’t
You’ll be a loser forever change your destiny change your path to life that is all I am saying

[Lyric and Subconscious]:
How do change what do I do?
You have to change you it all starts with you and only you
What about you your part of me your my subconscious?
I am the common sense and smart part of you yes I am your subconscoius
So you’re the one that I ignore?
Yeah you’re the one you don’t listen to so start listening to me more
I will try my best okay


The author's comments:

This is about dealing with my demons


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